Oh please let it work this time

Apologies for not updating sooner, I’m somewhat sick!!

I’ll start from where I ended the last post. Egg collection…..

It was like last time all over again….but worse. Not worse in the sense of the “dropping the cup incident” but worse in the, “I know what to expect” kind of way. I was SO much more nervous.

I felt it this time too!! Last time I went into a lovely sleep. This time….Ouch!! I screamed for more anaesthetic!!

I came around and they didn’t tell me how many eggs I had. I had my hot chocolate and biscuits and I still didn’t know the numbers. A lovely nurse went to find out for us and came back with the number 7.

7!!!!

I honestly could have cried. They promised us more eggs but now I had 4 less than last time.

A few minutes passed and the embryologist came in to tell us the drill for next couple of days…..”so congratulations, we collected 26 eggs!!?” I looked and him half smiling, half horrified. I said really a few times until his face dropped and said ” you are Anna right!???” Wholly fuck!! As if he got that wrong!! I’m so glad we already knew our little 7 number before he blurted that out. And I’m so angry for Anna. He rushed off and came in sheepishly with the correct file!! Let’s hope that’s the first and last mix up!!!!!!

My head is fully around the 7 number now. We are going quality over quantity. And honestly, right now I’m over the moon we didn’t get more than that!!!

Out fertilisation report came early the next morning. I was in Starbucks and DH was in the Gym ( I know right 🙂 ) A super 6 had fertilised! I’m so over the fucking moon. I predicted 7 collected but I didn’t dare dream of nearly all of them fertilising! I go in on Wednesday for a 5 day blast transfer.

I’m so excited. After opting for one put back last time I’m definitely going to push for 2. We will see what happens.

Moving forward to today. I am seriously feeling like shit. I went to A&E last night due to the pains in my tummy. I have serious constipation from cyclogest and a UTI – bad ones, and I’m still stupidly bloated from egg retrieval!! There’s not one part of my tummy that doesn’t hurt. It hurts to walk, it hurts to move, to go for a wee, I can’t go for a number 2, but I’m pretty sure that would hurt too. I’ve just picked some stuff up from the chemist so here’s to going to the loo normally tonight. haha I’m rattling worth antibiotics, codeine and some sort of laxative!! Oh what I do for you little baby!!

Anyway, there’s the update! I can’t wait to tell you how they have all done on Wednesday!

Hope you all had a lovely Monday.

Xx

One more sleep to egg collection.

I’m about to go to sleep.

Egg collections is in 11.5hours!!!

I’m much more nervous this time around. I think it’s because I know what to expect and I also have a benchmark of 11 eggs going into it.

Please let me sleep!!

I also feel like I have a uti coming on. Weird feeling.

Looking forwards to posting about how it all went ❤

Xxx

It’s trigger time

I’m absolutely exhausted but wanted to update you with recent movements.

Last time I blogged my dose of Gonal f was reduced to 150 and I was due to go back in on cd8 for a scan and another blood test. Well the scan showed 9 follicles on the right and 4 on the left (ranging 10-15). I was pretty disappointed. I expected a lot more eggs this time round after the consultants promises. Anyway the nurses were complete bitches at this appointment and I went home with the instructions to keep at 150 and to go back for a scan Wednesday (today). I never want those nurses again, they were so emotionless. And I have a bruised arm due to one of them and their crap nursing skills.

Today was different, very pleasant a I saw 3 nurses and each one was perfect. So so lovely – making up for Monday. Today’s scan showed 5 over 20 and the rest between 12-19. I think I’ll end up with less eggs this time Im going to guess at 7. But only 7 of our 11 fertilised last time. So god only knows how many we will get, you frostie ladies are so lucky!!

This whole process is so stressful. So many hurdles. But this time feels different, and so long as the end result is also different I will take that over last time.

I trigger in 20 minutes, I’m clock watching. I can’t believe how fast this IVF has gone.

I’m so glad we decided to go ahead with it this cycle. As egg collection will be Friday DH will be around for his duty. He’s going to take pictures of the room and will also not miss the pot like last time. As I said, everything is going to be different. 🙂

Xxx

Half way point

It’s day 7 of stimms.

For our first IVF Cycle I had scans every other day. So far I’ve had one blood test. I feel unwanted lol. I’m paying £4500 for this cycle so I expect more!?. The blood test must have come
Back ok yesterday as I had a call yesterday afternoon to tell me to reduce my Gonal F from 175 to 150 for my day 6 and day 7 dose and then I will go to the clinic for a scan Monday (tomorrow).

You all know what it’s like. I’m so anxious for tomorrow, there’s a million things which you worry about during this process and the first big one is the first scan. Do I have any follicles, how big are they, have I ovulated early. They range from the acceptable to the insane. I can’t wait just to get tomorrow done.

I’ve been having lots of bloating like last time, since about day 2. I’ve also had lots of ovary twinges (like I get during ovulation) and lots of ewcm. That panicked me a little. It constantly feels like I’m ovulating. I’m also very thirsty. They tell you to drink at least 3 litres a day but I’m easily doing this without even thinking about it.

I’ll update you tomorrow with the statistics. But if you’re looking for more regular updates follow me on Instagram….

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I’m back at work tomorrow after 2 weeks off!! I didn’t manage to win the lottery so it’s back to my project which is growing in complexity and size every day. I’m dreading to think what I’m going to go back to.

I hope you’re all having great cycles.
Lots of love

Xx

Help!!

I have a question about when I should be starting cetrotide….

Last time I started injecting on CD7 the 6th morning of taking Gonal f. This time the nurse has wrote on my sheet that I start taking cetrotide on my CD 6 (the morning of day 5 of stims). I think she’s wrong.

Can anyone help tell me what you think the answer is?

If I take cetrotide tomorrow morning I will only have had 4 doses of Gonal-F. This seems too soon?

Thanks ladies

Xxx

Round 2 **ding ding**

If you read my update yesterday you’ll know that I was in two minds whether to go with this round or postpone. As usual AF didn’t turn up when it was suppose to and so it’s made this cycle super close to when DH will be away with work (27th and 28th).

Well the baseline went brill. I have one tinsy cyst on my right ovary but it was small and collapsing and was probably where I ovulated from. I’ve been taking Maca so I like to think this played a part in shrinking any cysts I might have had. Go me! I have 27 follicles just ready and rearing to go.

We told the nurse about our concerns and she did look slightly concerned it may land on the Monday he is away but said she would get an embryologist to talk to us about freezing if needed. So we are doing this!!! Gonal f dosage is going up from 115 to 175. With no BC in my system and an extra oomph of fsh I’m hoping for lots of juicy eggs in time for ER.

I’m so eggcited!! Haha! First jab will be given to me in approximately 1 hour!! I can’t wait.

My next appointment is on Saturday.

I just want to say thank you for all of your wishes of good luck and advice. I don’t think I would have been brave enough to go for it this month if it wasn’t for you all. This is the month I can feel it. We are ready.

Lots of love

xx

Quick update

It turns out I don’t know a fail safe way to induce a period. Go figure! I didn’t come on the next day or the next day. In fact I came on this morning.

So where does this leave me?

Well I rang the clinic anyway and told them to book me in for a scan tomorrow. My cycle day 15 will be Sunday the 26th, DH is away 27th and 28th. I’m cutting it fine but I really dont want to postpone another month. Although if there’s a cyst my hand will be forced.

What would you all do?

Risk it or wait a whole extra month?? Bear in mind waiting another month takes us to Christmas and I would most likely be testing on the 2 year anniversary due date for our baby we lost.

So hard.

Lots of love xx

A sure way to make AF come tomorrow

I was so sure I would come on yesterday. There’s still no sign of it today, CD31. I thought I O’d on CD17/18 which would mean AF yesterday/today. I have a luteal phase of 12 days. All cm had cleared up by the 19th. I’ve been having pretty consistent cramps since about CD 26. I am feeling like I could bore holes into people with just a stare I’m that hormonal. My boobs are killing!!! And very full. I have the mother of all headaches.

Now the reason I know 100% I will come on tomorrow…..I let myself think for just a second that this may be my month.

This is fool proof.

I’ll update you with the precise time tomorrow. Hahahahaaa

On a more serious note, if AF doesn’t show itself tomorrow I think I will have to postponed IVF number 2 this cycle. My lovely DH is away training with work on the 27th which will be scarily close to egg retrieval. I can’t risk that!!!

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Qu: How long were you stimming for? I stimmed for 12 days last time but they will be putting my gonalf up this time so I’m thinking it will be shorter. I was on short protocol.

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I feel like stuffing my face full of pancakes. It’s 9:30pm in the uk. I don’t feel like its acceptable to whip up some batter and bring out the Nutella!! Is it?

Lots of love

X

Never straight forward

It’s cycle day 30. I’m waiting for AF to arrive so we can own this second go at IVF. Only problem is, DH is going away on Monday 27th Oct for one evening but will be in Birmingham on the Monday and Tuesday. Meaning the longer I’m waiting for AF the more likely it’s going to be that egg retrieval will be on that Monday or Tuesday.

Pleeeease hurry up, please come today or tomorrow.

I’ll probably go along to the baseline no matter what the timing because I have a feeling I’ll need to be on birth control for a few weeks. I actually think they should have advised me to go on this already because of my history of cysts.

I’m feeling good, I’m feeling ready.

I might go for a jog (for anyone that knows me – I don’t say that a lot!! Haha) I feel like that might hurry things along. I get friggin awful cramps down there when I jog.

Lots of love

X

Spoilt little embryo….

My embryo is a little madam already. Never mind too posh to push, this is taking it one step further with “too posh to ever consider natural conception” !! It’s the latest technology all the way with this little one and with it comes the astronomical price tag. Did you not hear ICSI is all the rage these days!?

I knew my baby would be spoilt but this just takes the biscuit!!

Dear baby M, This morning I paid the whopping £3950 it costs just to create you. (Minus medication costs!!!!) I would very much appreciate it if you could cooperate this time and snuggle in nice and comfy for the 9 months you’re supposed to. Now say thank you to MasterCard for making this possible. Love you lots and see you soon. Mummy and Daddy

Ha

Seriously though thanks to MasterCard, and a beautiful credit rating!!

Peace out

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