Forgive me bloggers for I have sinned….

……its been 5 weeks since my last blog post!!

So – after promising to blog weekly…i haven’t! 😦 for this I apologise. I have been crazily busy with my projects at work and time seriously is flying. For this I am grateful only 14 weeks to go. Woohoo! 

How Far Along?: 26 weeks! 6 months! 1 week away from the 3rd trimester!! 

Baby is the size of: Well Im not sure…apparently it could be a papaya, or a butternut squash, or a lettuce. These food sizes aren’t very standard. What I think is becoming clear is that I will have a little baby. At my 25 week midwife appointment my sfh was 24cm and against my personalised GROW chart this is way under the 5th centile. So I went back worried yesterday and got measured again…my sfh has grown 1cm in a week….and has brought me just on the 5th centile so I am happy about that. Going back again in a week just to make sure the progression is nice and strong. Rather a 6lb baby than a 10lber any day! :-p 

Total Weight Gain: Haven’t a clue – and Im not bothered about knowing either. All I know is that Im eating healthy(ish) and haven’t become obese yet….

My boobs are ginormous…I have outgrown even my hurrendous 34H bra (which I got in December where I had jumped from a nice 30FF!!)

Maternity Clothes?:Oh yes…Im forever on the lookout for flattering maternity clothes. Ive ordered quite a lot online…but also send a lot of it back. Its getting harder now the weather is getting warmer. I need to tan my legs and get some pretty dresses. But I really don’t do pale milky legs! yak! 

Also if anyone would like to invent maternity shoes I would be very grateful. I can not be bothered to go shoe shopping but have no option. I couldn’t go to work a couple of weeks ago because I couldn’t get my bloody foot into any of my shoes or boots. I can’t go to work in trainers or flip flops!! Working from home has been my life saver! I bought a pair of flat shoes last week (I’m short and do not do flat but haven’t an option right now) in 2 sizes bigger than I am…my feet are growing…they don’t look swollen yet but something funky is definitely happening!

 Stretch Marks?: Not yet – thanks body. Although varicose veins are my new thing. I feel like I have them on my upper thighs. But only when I am stood up. How do I get rid of these? Another reason for getting my legs all tanned…a tan is the best way of losing weight and hiding imperfections on the legs!! 

Sleep?: Broken – Its hard to turn and the frequent trips to the loo have started making an appearance again. Carpal tunnel is making my hands painful. My left hand is the worst and a couple of my fingers are now permanently numb. its bizarre and awkward.

Best Moment This Week?: Best moment of the last 5 weeks has been seeing my bump grow and buying little mans bedding. Im in love with all of his baby things. 

Movement?: Yes…but he has quiet days which scare the shit out of me. Some days he can be moving non stop and other days I feel the odd poke here and there. Im going to start documenting his movements every day to try and spot a pattern. 

Food Cravings?: Just give me all of the food in the world please. Ill eat it all and still have space for more. 

Anything making you queasy?: Just the sight of my pale slightly plump legs. Also I seriously need to start working on my arms…theyre getting soft!! Ive signed up to pregnancy yoga…just waiting for someone to give birth so I can have a space!! 

Baby Bump?: Yes…Its growing! Its changed shape recently though. I think he has changed position which may be the reason I feel his movements less sometimes. 

Gender Prediction?: Oh Im going to give a good guess at a boy. 

Labor Signs?: Noooo.

Belly Button In or Out?: Still in. I had a very deep belly button…its now almost flat. It won’t be long until it has fully popped! 🙂 

Wedding Rings on or off?: They come off on an evening. And sometimes if I set off for work early I can’t get them on. So annoying….I love my ring and feel naked without it. 

Happy or Moody?: Happy! lol – Think SO would add a “most of the time” to this

Miss Anything?: Being able to shave….being able to put my shoes on….being able to walk up stairs without feeling like passing out.

Looking forward to?: Entering the 3rd trimester!! And seeing my boy for his 4d scan in a couple of weeks!! 

Well there you go…Im not going to promise to come back in a week because Im obviously rubbish at keeping promises. 

Lots of love xx

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21 Weeks!! And the anatomy scan!

Hi Everyone!

Sorry I have been a bit absent on here recently….no other excuse except for laziness! :-/

I have steam rollered into the 21st week of pregnancy. It has been pretty uneventful thankfully. I had one episode where I was getting constant headaches along with quite a bit of pain in the area of my liver so I took myself to the pregnancy unit. It turned out to be nothing but I am glad I went to get that peace of mind.

Yesterday I had my 20 week anatomy scan. I was so nervous for it. For some reason I had convinced myself that the little man had a cleft lip…those early 4D scans are scary!! Now please don’t get me wrong….there are a lot worse things that could happen and I was fearful for those too…but I want my boy to be perfect in every way and this was a real fear of mine.

We were called in to the scan room at 10:20 yesterday and I jumped straight onto the bed and got ready to see my boy again. He was (is) just wonderfully perfect in every way. He has all the correct bits in all the correct places. My heart melted. The monographer was lovely….she did go far too silent as she was checking his heart for 20 mins. The heart I could see on the screen did not look like an anatomical heart you’d expect to see in a text book. The silence was frightening. It wasn’t until she got me to lay on my side that I saw the 4 chambers I had been waiting to see! ❤ His beautiful gorgeous little heart.

He was moving so much…my SO couldn’t believe how much he moves…Ive been telling him all about the kicks and using my bladder as a trampoline but I think he thinks Ive been exaggerating a little bit. I have not. He likes to move. Im still to see his movements – I can’t wait for this to happen. I often sit and stare and my now rather large tummy in anticipation of this event. Talking about the bump…it really is huge….my belly button is about to pop. I love every part of my pregnant self.

The only significant thing to come out of the scan was that I have a low lying placenta. It 2 cm away from my cervix. It means I have to go for another scan at 32 weeks. Hopefully its moved up so I can avoid having to have a cesarean.

I want to start doing the “bump date” type blogs so intend to do that here and TRY every week up until the B-Day 🙂

How Far Along?: 21 Weeks!!

Baby is the size of: Cantaloupe (or any other fruit in fact…each pregnancy app says something different!! Im just glad he is growing)

Total Weight Gain: Haven’t a clue – and Im not bothered about knowing either. All I know is that Im eating healthy(ish) and haven’t become obese yet….I think Im probably classed as overweight but I blame the size of my boobs.

Maternity Clothes?: Its all I feel comfortable in now…and they make my bump look super cute! 🙂

Stretch Marks?: Not yet – thanks body.

Sleep?: Broken – Its hard to turn and the frequent trips to the loo have started making an appearance again.

Best Moment This Week?: Seeing and hearing how perfect my little one is growing.

Movement?: Its becoming more and more. I seemed to feel him a lot around 16/17 weeks…and then it decreased for a couple of weeks. Now the movements are a lot more frequent and a lot more stronger. 🙂 I have an anterior placenta so that could be the reason for the lull at 18/19 weeks.

Food Cravings?: Just food in general….all types of food. Small food…large food….healthy food….fatty food….bright food…dull food….carbs….fruit…..sweets and meat. Just give me all food.

Anything making you queasy?: Not anymore 😉

Baby Bump?: I might be biased but I have the cutest little bump. People can tell Im pregnant and not just large.

Gender Prediction?: Oh Im going to give a good guess at a boy.

Labor Signs?: Noooo

Belly Button In or Out?: Still in. I had a very deep belly button…its now almost flat. It won’t be long until it has fully popped. Cant.wait!!

Wedding Rings on or off?: On – but last night my fingers swelled quite a lot…I might start taking them off in the evening.

Happy or Moody?: Happy! lol – Think SO would add a “most of the time” to this.

Miss Anything?: Nope

Looking forward to?: Reaching 24 weeks! And going to Kiddicare and Baby’s ‘R’ us tomorrow!! woohoo!

Thanks for reading! 😉

xxx

Doom and Gloom

I’m 6+4weeks pregnant and I’m definitely not enjoying myself. It’s got nothing to do with my symptoms. They aren’t that strong, I’m getting mild nausea every now and then, my sore boobs are on and off, I get a mild headache sometimes and the cramps are very much there.

I’m not enjoying it because I’m PETRIFIED something is going to happen. I’ve only been feeling like this for the last few days. Prior to this I was cautiously optimistic. Now I’m certain something bad is going to happen.

In my first pregnancy I was blissfully unaware of what can go wrong with pregnancy. I woke up every day smiling. I went about my day dreaming about my little ones future and I didn’t even blink an eye at the cramps I would get. Then all of a sudden, about a week before I was due for my 13 week ultrasound my world came crashing down. It was horrific and I’m really not ready to write down all of the detail. But in short, I ended up being admitted to hospital for 5 days, I got a blood infection, miscarried and it wasn’t pleasant. Suddenly my whole perception of what pregnancy was shattered and I was suddenly a realist.

My ultrasound is fast approaching. In 9 days I’ll be getting ready to go. I think this is what I’m so anxious about. I’ve only ever seen an empty womb on an ultrasound. The approach to an ultrasound spells doom

I have never wanted anything more than to see my healthy baby and its heart beating at my 8 week scan. I promise I will never ever ask for anything else ever again. Except for future healthy scans and a happy healthy full term pregnancy and baby.

I hope I can snap out of this doom and gloom mood and stop reading into every twinge and pull.

I should be grateful and I am. I am so grateful this ivf worked. But I’m too aware of the battle I could have in front of me. In not sure I could cope with another loss.

Xx

No beta!!

So my clinic called yesterday and congratulated me, and booked me in for an 8 week scan on 4th December.

When I asked about a blood test she said they don’t do them here in the UK. She said they would only do them if you had spotting or something else which would make you worried. Just to give you peace of mind. But the fact I’ve had a few positives and I’m not bleeding they are happy about.

Well, just the mere fact of going through IVF makes me think I deserve peace of mind!!

Plus I’ve been getting one or two pretty intense pains low down in my tummy that stop me in my track every day.

Anyone else getting this?

It’s mainly when ever I change position or need a wee really bad!

I might just phone my doctor instead, see if they can give me a slip for the hospital.

😀 :- D

And I guess I’ll have to keep taking tests for peace of mind instead. I’ll buy some more today. Good job I get paid in a week!! Haha

Xxx

Another pregnancy at work

This is one pregnancy announcement I am truly happy about!!

A lady I manage has gone through so much with MS, which she has finally been able to manage this past year. Her and her husband decided it was time to try a year ago once she was in a stable condition. Months went past and nothing happened. She was just about to give up when towards the end of last week she felt “off”. She told me and I joked “you’re not pregnant are you!?” She laughed and said she thought maybe she was and that she would take a test that afternoon. She did just that but it came back negative. I told her that she should trust her body and if her period was still late to take a test on Monday.

Well I was speaking to her today….and guess what….it’s positive!!

I’m so happy for her. They deserve this so much.

I’m not so happy about us both being pregnant together and having to take maternity together!! Heehee!! Because my babies are going to snuggle in deep tomorrow and be there for the long haul!!! Positive thinking and visitation will work won’t it!?

I’m hoping her good luck and baby dust rubs off onto me!! 😀

Xxx